crap! crap! crap! and more crap!

Why do I waste so much of my time thinking and being sad about someone that I would not even know if he thinks of me too? I just can't seem to understand how he would be so happy while I am in a state of depression since the start of the semester. Damn HIM for making me feel this way, and damn HER for getting in the way! I wish they were like bubbles that once I popped them they would never come back. I wish they were just mere HALLUCINATIONS that I get every time I day dream. Can the past be brought back to the present? Or can I foresee the future if they are still part of it? So many questions that needs answers. Life is just full of CRAP!